These mixed emotions that are going through in my head, spinning around and driving me crazy. I totally don’t know what to do with them or how to deal with them. I feel like going crazy and using all my energy so that I would be numb and feel nothing or find a way to relax and get numbed…..
Through out the years I have tried different techniques, which I thought worked at the time, sadly their effect is getting less and less every year, if not ever time I try them.
Not sure if the fact that I am not feeling as relaxed as I used to is even stressing me more, or the fact is that the amount of stress is piling up… or maybe that the type of stress is changing therefore I need to find alternating ways to relax and destress. …..